Bathing Suit shopping.... need i say more?????

    If bathing suit shopping isn't hard enough, try having a women in the room with you lifting and pulling and rearranging everything while giving you a look, as if to say there is no way you will ever compete? maybe that's not what she was thinking but standing in the room with a XS bottom on  feeling like everything was hanging out all in the wrong areas and a top that did no justice whatsoever for my top half, that is what I was telling myself.  In most peoples eye I look pretty good for having 3 kids and the youngest only being a year old, in most peoples eyes when I say I need to lose more weight they just laugh, and tell me no you don't. In most peoples eyes I am STRONG, CONFIDENT, and BEAST! but most people aren't the judges at this competition, not only are they going to see me in a swim suit that was probably made to fit a 4 year old but they will be looking past the pretty colors and sequence, to see every single muscle on my body, they will be looking at every striation and all definition  they will be looking to see exactly how much FAT i have around the smallest part of my ARM! they wont feel bad that I have had 3 kids,they wont even know. I will be judged in a way that I think MOST women are AFRAID of.. I will be compared to the SKINNY CHICK right beside me, both of us will want to WIN and show that we are the BEST! both of us come from different backgrounds and have totally opposite stories, but it WONT matter, all that will matter is that I look the best I can and make sure that my body is the best it can be.. The eating is draining and boring, the work outs are exhausting and intimidating, the swimsuits are terrifying and loathing.... So you ask if ALL of this is so substandard and awful why do you do it????  The achievement of this Figure Competition is worth all the sweat,pain, and tears. To know that only a handful of women and men train and complete this kind of competition, I know I want to be in that percentile. I want to BE A FIGURE COMPETITOR! (bring on the BIKINI'S):)